The Last few lines of "Hellboy (2004)"...
"What makes a man a man... a friend of mine once wondered...
is it his origins the way he comes to life...
I don't think so...
It's the Choices he makes...
not how he starts things...
but how he decides to end them."
Hmmmm... I am not sure what to make out of it... still doesn't say where I need to walk towards... not about being a man...
But more about the choices... the heart says one thing and well.... no the mind doesn't say the other.. but it sure puts questions in one's head.
Showing posts with label feelings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label feelings. Show all posts
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Sunday, August 3, 2008
Untitled.... :)
Something that I found on youtube... actually no... another blog... but well it deserves every bit of space tht it takes up here... and I am only happy to put it up here...
Do Watch it... its short... but speaks volumes...
How tired i am of this unbearable distance between us
How i long for the toll of the recess bell
Have u forgotten me; grown mindless of me?
Tell me i am not writing into an abyss
Or that is what will become of my heart.....
Do Watch it... its short... but speaks volumes...
How tired i am of this unbearable distance between us
How i long for the toll of the recess bell
Have u forgotten me; grown mindless of me?
Tell me i am not writing into an abyss
Or that is what will become of my heart.....
Saturday, May 31, 2008
The Notebook
This is how the movie begins.... something thats being said in the background...
"I am nothing special; just a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived: I've loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough. "
I must give credit to JD, thats from whom I first read these lines... fell in love with it then... got the movie and saw it recently... worth all the trouble I guess... It was Lovely
The letter that Noah writes to Allie:
"My Dearest Allie. I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you. Noah"
The arguement that they have...
"Young Noah: Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
Young Allie: So what?
Young Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out."
The easy way out... how does one recognize whether or not its the easy way out? How does one figure out whether it is actually what one wants?
I dont knw... I just have these simple beliefs... yet they are the hardest to follow... probably thats why I believe more in them... A little bit of hope... the rest are all just prayers... this way or that :)
"I am nothing special; just a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived: I've loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough. "
I must give credit to JD, thats from whom I first read these lines... fell in love with it then... got the movie and saw it recently... worth all the trouble I guess... It was Lovely
The letter that Noah writes to Allie:
"My Dearest Allie. I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you. Noah"
The arguement that they have...
"Young Noah: Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
Young Allie: So what?
Young Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out."
The easy way out... how does one recognize whether or not its the easy way out? How does one figure out whether it is actually what one wants?
I dont knw... I just have these simple beliefs... yet they are the hardest to follow... probably thats why I believe more in them... A little bit of hope... the rest are all just prayers... this way or that :)
Saturday, March 8, 2008
Random Thoughts...
it sure feels lonely……
I’ve been alone before…. but this sure takes the cake….
its like being alone from inside… how can that be… u cant be alone… u always have u with you whatever might be the case… but this time around… its seems like even that ‘u’ part is somewhere far away with her…
dont get ur mind running… the ‘u’ here is not her… i meant it more in the sense of the conscious… the soul.. the heart…
Yeah i know…silly…. maybe pathetic actually… to be saying this and writing it down to top it all….
but well… i guess i am saying the truth… why else would i be doing this…
you know its funny how things turn out…
i messed up…big time… i begged for another chance… i get it (?) and then as it would turn out…. i was at a place again begging for a chance for the same mess up… the same that had happened back then… somthing that whatever I did… it would never change… anyways… this is not abt tht… i got the chance… i worked on it… doggedly this time… with nothing in my hands…
somehow i began to think that things were changing… for the better this time… yeah the problems were there… there were problems she had…and i thought i was trying to the best to help her…. but somehow as it happened to turn out… it wasnt… or maybe it wasnt enough… well whatever it might be…
well surprisingly… i give in this time… (since she was sure that she was not happy with the way things were)… and me the silly fool that I am… told her that nothing else that mattered than her happiness… and if she felt that it was the right thing and that this would make her happy…so be it..
dint really know then… that was like the last nail on the coffin… my coffin… its true nothing matters than to see her happy… to see her smile… to see her feel free…
but somehow somewhere along the way… i kinda forgot how tht wud make me.. rather maybe i really did not forsee what that would do to me… no not her happiness and her smile and her being free…. but on the contrary… the lack of all those in my life… her presence… her everything…
and here i am now… at this juncture where somehow strangely i am not able to tell whether she is all that i just said…
i keep reassuring myself that maybe she is happy… that i am sure there are people keeping her happy and smiling…. however… i dont know why… its this strange new feeling… as much as i try to convince myself… i keep getting this thought… i dont knw… this question keeps creeping up… is she really happy… no not in the sense that a lover would ask or rather would secretly hope for… (being selfish ie) but well no… this is something different… i dont know… i somehow feel this inside… keep pacifying myself that its just mind games… but then… i dont know….
as much as i want her back… as much as i love her… i somehow still keep going back to saying the same thing… i hope that she is happy… that she is smiling.. that she feels free.. she feels the way she wants to feel…
i dont know what else to do… there have been many a times when i had wanted to say to her… but then… i really dont want to spoil anything for her… i really dont want to be the reason for her messing up something… i wish i knew what to do… and please not the regular jazz… let it go… move on… stuff like that… but no… i wish i knew what i could do to help her… i wish i knew…..
i miss it.. i miss it all… i miss everything… sometimes i miss me…. strange isnt it?
dont bother… its just the crazy me…. the nomad..correction…. the mad nomad :)
I’ve been alone before…. but this sure takes the cake….
its like being alone from inside… how can that be… u cant be alone… u always have u with you whatever might be the case… but this time around… its seems like even that ‘u’ part is somewhere far away with her…
dont get ur mind running… the ‘u’ here is not her… i meant it more in the sense of the conscious… the soul.. the heart…
Yeah i know…silly…. maybe pathetic actually… to be saying this and writing it down to top it all….
but well… i guess i am saying the truth… why else would i be doing this…
you know its funny how things turn out…
i messed up…big time… i begged for another chance… i get it (?) and then as it would turn out…. i was at a place again begging for a chance for the same mess up… the same that had happened back then… somthing that whatever I did… it would never change… anyways… this is not abt tht… i got the chance… i worked on it… doggedly this time… with nothing in my hands…
somehow i began to think that things were changing… for the better this time… yeah the problems were there… there were problems she had…and i thought i was trying to the best to help her…. but somehow as it happened to turn out… it wasnt… or maybe it wasnt enough… well whatever it might be…
well surprisingly… i give in this time… (since she was sure that she was not happy with the way things were)… and me the silly fool that I am… told her that nothing else that mattered than her happiness… and if she felt that it was the right thing and that this would make her happy…so be it..
dint really know then… that was like the last nail on the coffin… my coffin… its true nothing matters than to see her happy… to see her smile… to see her feel free…
but somehow somewhere along the way… i kinda forgot how tht wud make me.. rather maybe i really did not forsee what that would do to me… no not her happiness and her smile and her being free…. but on the contrary… the lack of all those in my life… her presence… her everything…
and here i am now… at this juncture where somehow strangely i am not able to tell whether she is all that i just said…
i keep reassuring myself that maybe she is happy… that i am sure there are people keeping her happy and smiling…. however… i dont know why… its this strange new feeling… as much as i try to convince myself… i keep getting this thought… i dont knw… this question keeps creeping up… is she really happy… no not in the sense that a lover would ask or rather would secretly hope for… (being selfish ie) but well no… this is something different… i dont know… i somehow feel this inside… keep pacifying myself that its just mind games… but then… i dont know….
as much as i want her back… as much as i love her… i somehow still keep going back to saying the same thing… i hope that she is happy… that she is smiling.. that she feels free.. she feels the way she wants to feel…
i dont know what else to do… there have been many a times when i had wanted to say to her… but then… i really dont want to spoil anything for her… i really dont want to be the reason for her messing up something… i wish i knew what to do… and please not the regular jazz… let it go… move on… stuff like that… but no… i wish i knew what i could do to help her… i wish i knew…..
i miss it.. i miss it all… i miss everything… sometimes i miss me…. strange isnt it?
dont bother… its just the crazy me…. the nomad..correction…. the mad nomad :)
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
On Love...
This is something that I found on another blog that I have started following recently...
The answers to most of the questions if not all was a yes from my side.... does that mean I am in love with me... does that mean that I was in love with the person that I once was... and most importantly does that mean that I was honestly in love?
But what matters probably is not how I see my answers as... but how the other person sees them... what the other person has to say to them...
And unfortunately, maybe not all questions that matter to the other person have been asked over here.. and maybe that's where I have failed miserably to be in a miserable situation like this. Aaah the joy and pain of being in Love... :)
Well here you go... the post that I have been talking about...
How do you know if he is the one?
1. Does he love you (he must have said it once sometime back then. Try to rack your brains and bring out that memory)
2. Does he try to make you feel better? (he might not succeed most of the times but trying matters)
3. Does he listen, atleast most of the time (when there is no match going on in TV or when he is not in the loo)
4. Does he always listen when you crib abour your hair and your weight though he may not agree with you on either complaints?
5. Does he reiterate that you did the right thing when you doubt yourself?
6. Does he ask you to go home and take rest when you say you have a bad backache or a sprained foot?
7. Does he make you laugh even when you are feeling really low and sorry for yourself?
8. Does he eat your cooking without saying anything bad about it?
9. Does he mention you on and off in conversations with other people, always fondly?
If your answer to most of the questions up there is yes, then you are goddamn lucky. Remember that not everyone gets a guy who is willing to do all this for them. Yes, they are a strange species, but then, so are we. Enjoy what you have.
The answers to most of the questions if not all was a yes from my side.... does that mean I am in love with me... does that mean that I was in love with the person that I once was... and most importantly does that mean that I was honestly in love?
But what matters probably is not how I see my answers as... but how the other person sees them... what the other person has to say to them...
And unfortunately, maybe not all questions that matter to the other person have been asked over here.. and maybe that's where I have failed miserably to be in a miserable situation like this. Aaah the joy and pain of being in Love... :)
Well here you go... the post that I have been talking about...
How do you know if he is the one?
1. Does he love you (he must have said it once sometime back then. Try to rack your brains and bring out that memory)
2. Does he try to make you feel better? (he might not succeed most of the times but trying matters)
3. Does he listen, atleast most of the time (when there is no match going on in TV or when he is not in the loo)
4. Does he always listen when you crib abour your hair and your weight though he may not agree with you on either complaints?
5. Does he reiterate that you did the right thing when you doubt yourself?
6. Does he ask you to go home and take rest when you say you have a bad backache or a sprained foot?
7. Does he make you laugh even when you are feeling really low and sorry for yourself?
8. Does he eat your cooking without saying anything bad about it?
9. Does he mention you on and off in conversations with other people, always fondly?
If your answer to most of the questions up there is yes, then you are goddamn lucky. Remember that not everyone gets a guy who is willing to do all this for them. Yes, they are a strange species, but then, so are we. Enjoy what you have.
Saturday, March 1, 2008
I Feel terrible....
I am feeling terrible :( :( :(
Was worried that someone was sad... thought so because I saw something that made me think so... wrote a message hoping that it wasn't so... hoping that all was well...
Dint get any response and well maybe I was being optimistic hoping for one too...
After sometime looked back at what I saw that made me think like that... and fortunately or unfortunately saw it in a new and different light...
the results.... wonderful... realised that prob someone wasn't sad at all... on the contrary may be happy... that thought alone makes me happy and maybe to an extent relieved...
but to be honest... it makes me sad and miserable inside... not because someone is now happy... but because the reason of happiness makes me feel sad for myself...
how pathetic is that... why can't I just stick to feeling happy for someone... why must I run my mind along...
Ohhh I feel terrible.... MISERABLE !!!
Was worried that someone was sad... thought so because I saw something that made me think so... wrote a message hoping that it wasn't so... hoping that all was well...
Dint get any response and well maybe I was being optimistic hoping for one too...
After sometime looked back at what I saw that made me think like that... and fortunately or unfortunately saw it in a new and different light...
the results.... wonderful... realised that prob someone wasn't sad at all... on the contrary may be happy... that thought alone makes me happy and maybe to an extent relieved...
but to be honest... it makes me sad and miserable inside... not because someone is now happy... but because the reason of happiness makes me feel sad for myself...
how pathetic is that... why can't I just stick to feeling happy for someone... why must I run my mind along...
Ohhh I feel terrible.... MISERABLE !!!
Friday, February 29, 2008
The Video
And for those who are interested in seeing the video that I found to be best suitable for the song below... rather maybe the one that I was best able to relate with... then here it is... although you would have seen it already on my profile...
Had gone through many others including the soundtrack version (OST Serendipity) but then this is what I found to be the closest to what I feel... especially the beginning few lines that's written... sometimes I wonder whether it makes me feel any less if it wasn't written/said by me in the first place... but well I can't help it if someone else beat me to it... or may be someone else is out there who feels the same way as I do...
Anyways here's the video... the distance by evan and joran
Had gone through many others including the soundtrack version (OST Serendipity) but then this is what I found to be the closest to what I feel... especially the beginning few lines that's written... sometimes I wonder whether it makes me feel any less if it wasn't written/said by me in the first place... but well I can't help it if someone else beat me to it... or may be someone else is out there who feels the same way as I do...
Anyways here's the video... the distance by evan and joran
The Distance - Evan and Joran
The sky has lost its color
The sun has turned to grey
At least thats how it feels to me
Whenever youre away
I crawl up in the corner
To watch the minutes pass
Each one brings me closer to
The time youre cominback
I cant take the distance
I cant the miles
I cant take the time until I next see you smile
I cant take the distance
And Im not ashamed
That with every breath I take Im callinyour name
But I cant take the distance
I still believe my feelings
But sometimes I feel too much
I make believe youre close to me
But it aint close enough
Not nearly close enough
I cant take the distance
I cant the miles
I cant take the time until I next see you smile
I cant take the distance
And Im not ashamed
That with every breath I take Im callinyour name
I brave fire and I brave rain
To be by your side Id do anything
I cant take the distance
I will go the distance
I will go the miles
Thats how much you mean to me
cause I cant take the distance
I cant take these miles
I cant take the time until I next see you smile
I cant take the distance
And Im not ashamed
That with every breath I take Im callinyour name
I cant take the distance
Its hard to remember
As long as youre away
When I find solace
Theres only one way
The sun has turned to grey
At least thats how it feels to me
Whenever youre away
I crawl up in the corner
To watch the minutes pass
Each one brings me closer to
The time youre cominback
I cant take the distance
I cant the miles
I cant take the time until I next see you smile
I cant take the distance
And Im not ashamed
That with every breath I take Im callinyour name
But I cant take the distance
I still believe my feelings
But sometimes I feel too much
I make believe youre close to me
But it aint close enough
Not nearly close enough
I cant take the distance
I cant the miles
I cant take the time until I next see you smile
I cant take the distance
And Im not ashamed
That with every breath I take Im callinyour name
I brave fire and I brave rain
To be by your side Id do anything
I cant take the distance
I will go the distance
I will go the miles
Thats how much you mean to me
cause I cant take the distance
I cant take these miles
I cant take the time until I next see you smile
I cant take the distance
And Im not ashamed
That with every breath I take Im callinyour name
I cant take the distance
Its hard to remember
As long as youre away
When I find solace
Theres only one way
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Daily Quote - Although I have my reservations against it
This is the quote for the day that I received in the mail today...
Happiness is not in our circumstance but in ourselves. It is not something we see, like a rainbow, or feel, like the heat of a fire. Happiness is something we are
~John B. Sheerin~
I dont know... but is it really? I seem to agree and disagree with the author at the same time. Happiness is definitely something that we are.... but at the same time... isnt it also something that we feel... the joy... the excitement...happiness... arent all these feelings?
Will write more on it...unfortunately I need to be elsewhere right now... so better leave
Happiness is not in our circumstance but in ourselves. It is not something we see, like a rainbow, or feel, like the heat of a fire. Happiness is something we are
~John B. Sheerin~
I dont know... but is it really? I seem to agree and disagree with the author at the same time. Happiness is definitely something that we are.... but at the same time... isnt it also something that we feel... the joy... the excitement...happiness... arent all these feelings?
Will write more on it...unfortunately I need to be elsewhere right now... so better leave
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