I Feel terrible....

I am feeling terrible :( :( :(

Was worried that someone was sad... thought so because I saw something that made me think so... wrote a message hoping that it wasn't so... hoping that all was well...

Dint get any response and well maybe I was being optimistic hoping for one too...

After sometime looked back at what I saw that made me think like that... and fortunately or unfortunately saw it in a new and different light...

the results.... wonderful... realised that prob someone wasn't sad at all... on the contrary may be happy... that thought alone makes me happy and maybe to an extent relieved...

but to be honest... it makes me sad and miserable inside... not because someone is now happy... but because the reason of happiness makes me feel sad for myself...
how pathetic is that... why can't I just stick to feeling happy for someone... why must I run my mind along...

Ohhh I feel terrible.... MISERABLE !!!