"The Cuppycake Song"

No lip-syncing here folks, This is the REAL DEAL!: The original 1994 video of "The Cuppycake Song" (words and music by Judianna Castle) being recorded by the original artist (our daughter, Amy at age 3 yrs, 10 mo.) in our home studio.

Although there were many takes of the song during the session, this was the one that made it onto our BALLOONS children's CD(www.cdbaby.com/buddycastle)and the one which has generated so much interest on the internet.

Since uploading "The Cuppycake Song" to the web in 1996, it has truly taken on a life of it's own. On You Tube alone, there are currently over 2,000 videos using this song! In the last ten years we have received thousands of unsolicited comments from people of all ages across the US and many countries around the world who have been touched by this simple song and the tiny voice that sings it.

Now at last, you can see the face that goes with the voice. This should finally put to rest the false rumor that the song was sung by Strawberry Shortcake.
To read some of the many listener comments and to see additional photos of Amy, please visit us at www.cuppycake.com

Amy will be 18 on April 2, 2008 and enjoys creating
and editing her own videos: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kQeGpmxcXMI

P.S: Amy sure seems to have grown.... ;-)

My Trip to Space - A Poem

"My trip to space was splendid,
it was beautiful indeed,
we could see all the planets,
and went far far away,
from the earth
just like small birds
we fly in the sky
no worry no school
we longed to be
in the sky forever"

This poem (??) was written by me (with a lot of help from mom I am sure) maybe when I was 8 or 9 years old. I found this in a diary recently...
I don't know why I post this here.... I mean why give a spade to be hit upon ;-)
Yet, somehow, I was smiling when I saw this... smiling at the silliness of age... I am sure I must have been dying to get out of writing this at that point of time, giving a hell of a time to my mom :)
Still, I guess I would like to keep this memory running... reminisce sometime in the future... ie of course assuming that this blog lasts that long... and I continue to visit if not keep writing :D

Ye Ye... :D

Yaaaaaaayyyyyyyyy :)

Have now officially started working on My Photo Blog

Hope to keep adding more pics... Just wish my hard disk that contains all the snaps starts working somehow :(

Pray for me Brother....

The first part of a possible series by A.R.Rahman...

What do I think of it?

Well I like it.... its a nice video... the use of just and black and white enhances the look.... and rahman sounds good when is singing in English.... I like it :)

At your side....

Nothing much to say here.... Everything’s been said... everything and more...

Gali mein aaj chand nikala….

Its funny how some things happen... ok.... maybe funny is the wrong word here.... but well I dont know what to make of it...

For the past couple of weeks and more… the moon has been pricy with its appearance.... havent been able to see it… have missed having the conversations that we used to have… ( yeah… talkin to the moon.. makes me a crazy person.....right? but then again does it??? )

Today someone posted this song on their orkut page...



A very beautiful song... soft and melodious....

Later during the night.... someone else (edition done - :) ) updates their profile on orkut... makes me go crazy... I dont know why it still affects me.... why I behave so… I mean.. I seem to be contradicting myself... but anyways... beginning to act mad and all hassled, I decide to step out for a walk and a smoke... and voila!!! The moon is out there... in the clouds.... with them still trying to cover the light shining through... sort of like a mist around it.... and the first thing that comes to my mind....
Jaane kitne dinon ke baad.... gali mein aaj chand nikala...

Must be purely coincidental that chand is someone I treasure... someone whose profile got updated.... another reason for me to lose my mind... seems paradoxical in some way.... I dont know.... but what is that I have done... what is it that I do....

Jaane kitne dinon ke baad...

gali mein aaj chand nikala...

Today's fortune

Today's fortune: You will never need to worry about a steady income

Ha Ha Ha... who's ever worried about a steady income.... its the unsteady income that I am worried about.... ;)

Please anybody out there ready for a trade off.... ???? :D

Aaarrrrrgggghhhh.....

Aaarrrrrgggghhhh..... Been wanting to write for so long now... have so many things that I want to write on... somehow cant seem to take the time out for it..

Alright Alright... I am just a lazy Bum procrastinating... something that comes easily to me I guess ;-)

But how can I help it if all these great mind wracking ideas come to me when I least expect it and when I am not near a pen n paper (the computer.. so to speak)

I have had the title... the text everything running through my mind....except it never gets down to paper... and all of this is happening probably while I am having a conversation with someone else or when I am doing something else.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhh

Today's Fortune...

Today’s fortune: You never hesitate to tackle the most difficult problems

Ha ha ha…. nice isnt it…. feels good… somehow we tend to relate with all that’s good going around you…. and also more-so to the bad things too….

Well I somehow am not sure about the fortune above… I havent tackled any of my most difficult and urgent problems of mine… hell I am not even sure what they are… everything seems to be so jumbled up… but then again.. thats been the way with me I guess…

Random Thoughts...

it sure feels lonely……

I’ve been alone before…. but this sure takes the cake….
its like being alone from inside… how can that be… u cant be alone… u always have u with you whatever might be the case… but this time around… its seems like even that ‘u’ part is somewhere far away with her…
dont get ur mind running… the ‘u’ here is not her… i meant it more in the sense of the conscious… the soul.. the heart…
Yeah i know…silly…. maybe pathetic actually… to be saying this and writing it down to top it all….
but well… i guess i am saying the truth… why else would i be doing this…

you know its funny how things turn out…
i messed up…big time… i begged for another chance… i get it (?) and then as it would turn out…. i was at a place again begging for a chance for the same mess up… the same that had happened back then… somthing that whatever I did… it would never change… anyways… this is not abt tht… i got the chance… i worked on it… doggedly this time… with nothing in my hands…
somehow i began to think that things were changing… for the better this time… yeah the problems were there… there were problems she had…and i thought i was trying to the best to help her…. but somehow as it happened to turn out… it wasnt… or maybe it wasnt enough… well whatever it might be…
well surprisingly… i give in this time… (since she was sure that she was not happy with the way things were)… and me the silly fool that I am… told her that nothing else that mattered than her happiness… and if she felt that it was the right thing and that this would make her happy…so be it..
dint really know then… that was like the last nail on the coffin… my coffin… its true nothing matters than to see her happy… to see her smile… to see her feel free…
but somehow somewhere along the way… i kinda forgot how tht wud make me.. rather maybe i really did not forsee what that would do to me… no not her happiness and her smile and her being free…. but on the contrary… the lack of all those in my life… her presence… her everything…
and here i am now… at this juncture where somehow strangely i am not able to tell whether she is all that i just said…
i keep reassuring myself that maybe she is happy… that i am sure there are people keeping her happy and smiling…. however… i dont know why… its this strange new feeling… as much as i try to convince myself… i keep getting this thought… i dont knw… this question keeps creeping up… is she really happy… no not in the sense that a lover would ask or rather would secretly hope for… (being selfish ie) but well no… this is something different… i dont know… i somehow feel this inside… keep pacifying myself that its just mind games… but then… i dont know….
as much as i want her back… as much as i love her… i somehow still keep going back to saying the same thing… i hope that she is happy… that she is smiling.. that she feels free.. she feels the way she wants to feel…
i dont know what else to do… there have been many a times when i had wanted to say to her… but then… i really dont want to spoil anything for her… i really dont want to be the reason for her messing up something… i wish i knew what to do… and please not the regular jazz… let it go… move on… stuff like that… but no… i wish i knew what i could do to help her… i wish i knew…..

i miss it.. i miss it all… i miss everything… sometimes i miss me…. strange isnt it?
dont bother… its just the crazy me…. the nomad..correction…. the mad nomad :)

On Love...

This is something that I found on another blog that I have started following recently...

The answers to most of the questions if not all was a yes from my side.... does that mean I am in love with me... does that mean that I was in love with the person that I once was... and most importantly does that mean that I was honestly in love?

But what matters probably is not how I see my answers as... but how the other person sees them... what the other person has to say to them...

And unfortunately, maybe not all questions that matter to the other person have been asked over here.. and maybe that's where I have failed miserably to be in a miserable situation like this. Aaah the joy and pain of being in Love... :)

Well here you go... the post that I have been talking about...

How do you know if he is the one?

1. Does he love you (he must have said it once sometime back then. Try to rack your brains and bring out that memory)
2. Does he try to make you feel better? (he might not succeed most of the times but trying matters)
3. Does he listen, atleast most of the time (when there is no match going on in TV or when he is not in the loo)
4. Does he always listen when you crib abour your hair and your weight though he may not agree with you on either complaints?
5. Does he reiterate that you did the right thing when you doubt yourself?
6. Does he ask you to go home and take rest when you say you have a bad backache or a sprained foot?
7. Does he make you laugh even when you are feeling really low and sorry for yourself?
8. Does he eat your cooking without saying anything bad about it?
9. Does he mention you on and off in conversations with other people, always fondly?

If your answer to most of the questions up there is yes, then you are goddamn lucky. Remember that not everyone gets a guy who is willing to do all this for them. Yes, they are a strange species, but then, so are we. Enjoy what you have.

I Feel terrible....

I am feeling terrible :( :( :(

Was worried that someone was sad... thought so because I saw something that made me think so... wrote a message hoping that it wasn't so... hoping that all was well...

Dint get any response and well maybe I was being optimistic hoping for one too...

After sometime looked back at what I saw that made me think like that... and fortunately or unfortunately saw it in a new and different light...

the results.... wonderful... realised that prob someone wasn't sad at all... on the contrary may be happy... that thought alone makes me happy and maybe to an extent relieved...

but to be honest... it makes me sad and miserable inside... not because someone is now happy... but because the reason of happiness makes me feel sad for myself...
how pathetic is that... why can't I just stick to feeling happy for someone... why must I run my mind along...

Ohhh I feel terrible.... MISERABLE !!!